too much too soon

Today has been oh for the love of god why can I not just stop time to stay in bed longer or to pause a meeting of high emotions and pinched self-esteem to go by myself to an empty study room to growl at things. Or to get this cascade of work done alone, in quiet. But I got home from work to a bottle of wine from a friend and a nicely made bed my by husband and instead of combining the two, yet, I'm going to snort back in these doubts and wobbly tears and go to watch my sister in law perform in a play and tomorrow I'll start over.