self care

lying flat on my stomach on the living room floor listening to Bach

140 minutes of brisk walking

casserole an hour late

amazon prime

dark chocolate, hot tea, animated movie, asleep halfway through

extra coconut oil

not folding laundry

honesty

audiobooks

sleeping pressed against S with as many body parts as I can manage

bringing the baby into bed with us in the wee hours

bluetooth headphones

conscious un-jealousy

conscious un-googling

shoulders back, chin up, straight forward

all ear

Sometimes when I'm in bed at night I think my ear is growing to take over the whole side of my head. 95% asleep, with the up ear completely alert. I keep waking before the squawking starts. My ear lies awake too long after the squawking stops. Full of phantoms.