opening night

This week and next I am spending my evenings with double reeds and fairies and inter-species marriages on the stage. It keeps my spirit awake. I guess it's being a boundaried part of a whole that I like. I have a role, a singular role, and it's good, but it is nothing compared to the collective. That's why I'll always say yes. It's not that I'm a sucker, or that I'm bad at saying no. It's-- I will always want to play. Also, maybe, it is a little bit that I'm a suck-up. You have no idea how much it mattered when the conductor walked up to me as I was lying on my back on the stage during the break and touched my head and said thank you.